We’re involved in a new venture despite some of the challenges we faced with other triads. We’re not sure if this will have different results than before but based on our most recent experience we’re optimistic that this will be better than previous times. She’s intelligent, motivated and exceptionally attractive. And she’s anxious and excited to experience our level of kink. This has been a great weekend and lots more details to follow.
One of my favorite role playing scenes is that of the Cuckolding wife for clients who are single or whose wives will not engage in the behavior. Here’s an article I found interesting.
And as quickly as one door closes, another door opens.
Triads are interesting and challenging and we’ve had more failures than successes yet we continue searching and have come to realize that it’s not the third person that’s the “unicorn”; it’s actually us.
We closed a chapter over the past week and started a new, optimistic relationship that may offer the promises we hoped for in all the other relationships. We’ve always set our requirements and desires for a third person high and the latest has certainly not disappointed.
We’ve started down a new path and one we look forward to with great optimism. Sexually there’s a wonderful dynamic and there is wonderful physical chemistry. But there’s an intellectual component that we could have only hoped for and we certainly feel as though we’ve hit the triad lottery.
Interestingly enough, we don’t plan on changing our approach or desires. If she works out, we’ll be thrilled. If not, it will be another lesson learned.
It’s been too long since I’ve put something in writing about my personal relationships and I think I may wait a little while before I do so. I’d like to determine the trajectory of some of my relationships before I finally put their resolution in writing.
Professionally, however, my clientele continues to grow and that expansion brings with it a wonderful new set of personalities and stories. My latest client is “H”, an older and incredibly articulate submissive who suffers from erectile dysfunction. He paid for a 30 minute video session but I gave more time because he was so inquisitive and interesting. I love when a submissive takes a genuine interest in me because I always have a genuine interest in them. “H” was curious about my orgasms, about what pleased me, about what I felt when having sex. He reminded me of a doctor with a fabulous bedside manner who would take the time to ask about your symptoms in order to better diagnose the problem. “H” and I talked for 45 minutes and yes, he wanted to get off so there absolutely was an ulterior motive, but his interest was genuine and the admiration of his Goddess quite real.
I got to the end of the session, left him with a little extra something to imagine and fantasize over and went on my way. I do so hope to see him again!!
As we navigate our way through this relationship, I’m grasping better the roles that each of us play in this dynamic. Our foreplay doesn’t always happen in the bedroom. It’s as much an intellectual pursuit as it is sexual. I’m also learning I’m the facilitator in many regards. I bring a clarity to the differences in this relationship and I manage to steer all of us in directions that we may not realize we need to go. It’s not one of manipulation but of seeing things from an objective viewpoint and helping all of us comprehend the complexity and beauty of a triad relationship. Maybe there’s something that pushes a button of someone else or a misunderstanding of intent or desire. In some ways, I’m the glue that holds the triad together, at other times, the “Swiss army knife”, finding that correct tool to make things work or to fix a minor problem before it becomes a large one. We all possess something in this though. For “N”, it’s an intellectual insight into a life that we have not been involved in many years. For “E”, it’s managing the expectations; desires, sexual, physical, intellectual and emotional. We all have a place in this and have learned that frequent communication, especially after an intense night of sexual contact or possibly a mild tiff, is the absolute key to making this work. Our communication may be a bit methodical, but it’s consistent and deep. Our contact is consistent. Either we’ll show up on a Friday and leave on a Monday or she’ll show Friday evening and leave Sunday afternoon. Regardless, each morning, we’ve built a somewhat consistent routine of breakfast and an “after action report”, talking about what we did the night before, what we loved, what turned us on, our plans for the day, the next evening or whatever may work it’s way into our relationship. We continue to find our discussion afterwards as intense as the sexual component the night before. And more often than not, that serves as the foreplay for the next afternoon and evening.
Sex is a major part of this triad. It’s not the only thing but it’s the component that binds us in so many ways. We share a man and in turn, he does his best to sexually pleasure us. Maybe individually, maybe together. it may seem hedonistic and in many regards, it certainly can be. But there’s an element of intellectual sexuality, where the mind plays a starring role and we find ourselves motivated by the curiosity, the passion, the security and the comfort as much as the orgasm.
We’re now settling into our roles but also realize that there’s an evolution of those roles and at times, one person may intentionally stray into another person’s role because they have unique experiences or insight that helps the other two. Regardless, the joy of this triad continues to manifest itself each day, even when we’re apart. We have a longing for her and she for us and we realize that the time in between being together does much to heighten the passion and desire. It also makes us far more appreciative of the time spent outside the bedroom, in a museum or perusing galleries or going to a party or fine restaurant. This is all part of the relationship and triad, it’s what makes it exciting and so worthwhile.
I write extensively about our relationship and the details of our sexuality.
This post is about missing her.
We miss her. Immensely. We’ve connected. We’re happy. We crave her company and the intellectual stimulation that comes with it. We find our passion grows deeper with each day. She is away for the next week and for the first time in our triad we are all scattered across the United States. It’s makes the anticipation for our next time together even more unbearable but simultaneously more exciting. We communicate as a triad through texts during the day but also have our individual communication with one another. It makes the passing of time between our long weekends bearable but less than enjoyable. How can two women have serious feelings for one man and yet not feel the jealousy that most people would feel? This is what makes this so erotic and stimulating. Part of it are the looks we receive at parties and dinner and brunch. But so much of this is about the continual transition from sexual partners to lovers to friends. We do count the days between our time with her and know she does the same. Sometimes our texts are raunchy and well beyond suggestive. Other times they’re deep and pensive and insightful. Regardless, we ache between our days with N.
This is how she approached.
My initial thought was, “this is a guy pretending to be a woman”. After all, no woman I know, except for me, is into the naughty details.
As I persisted, I realized she actually was a woman and really was into the naughty details and that’s what attracted us to her. She had no preconceived notion about what a relationship with a couple would be, she was very open to our ideas and relationship. She laid everything out in front of us and told us what she wanted, what she liked and what she expected. But there was still much unsaid.
We conducted several weeks of back-and-forth texting as well as several phone calls. Yes, indeed she was a woman and she was everything that she said she was. That’s what struck us as so very intriguing. The challenge is to find someone in this lifestyle who carries the level of attractiveness both physically and mentally as well as the necessary intellect to hold our interest. But that’s exactly what she did.
Our first meeting with her was at a hotel across the river from Manhattan. She dressed in a cute black top and shorts with a pair of high-heels and looked every bit as beautiful as she did in the pictures she sent. A welcome relief from the non-stop catfishing that persists on these sites. We ordered drinks, chatted and observed some of the stares we received from other patrons. It’s interesting how people pick up on the dynamic of a threesome even when nothing overtly happens.
I think what impacted us most was the level of intelligence and ability to articulate a wide variety of subjects. I’ve met other women in similar situations and all I receive are blank stares. “N”, as I’ll refer to her, is not that. She’s well read, traveled and spoken.
But reagardless the mental attraction, the next challenge became how to engage physically. Alcohol loosens things up. But the first move is hard. Who makes it? Who initiates sex? And let there be no doubt, our initial meeting was purely a hedonistic pursuit. Upon arriving in our room, she asked if she could smoke to relieve a bit of the anxiety. That presents its own challenge because you’re never sure what person you get afterwards. Is it someone loose and carefree or manic and crazy? It’s a risk. You take risks. It was worth taking.
N’s body is fabulous. Unblemished from the stress of child birth, her body is toned, firm, soft and most arousing. The next thing I saw was clothes coming off, full nudity and this beautiful woman going down on my man. And I loved it. Yes, my female readers, I loved it. I was finally in that voyeuristic state that allowed me to bask in the scene without harboring any guilt or jealousy. It didn’t hurt that we have such similar physical characteristics. I know I’m hot. And I know she is too. But what would cause most to be jealous only aroused me. I didn’t think I’d lose my man to this incredibly driven, smart, intellectual woman. I knew it would make him want me more.
The sex was intensely mind blowing. From behind, all fours, tied up, missionary, oral and vaginal simultaneously, receiving and giving strap on, multiple orgasms. I’ve never had sex like that. But what was most arousing is seeing this powerful and strong woman become compliant and submissive. I loved watching my husband take her from behind and fuck her. Hard. I loved seeing him take a fistful of her hair, putting her on her knees and having her pleasure him while she looked up into his eyes. I loved seeing the man who dominates me dominate her. I truly wanted her to feel the thrill of what my mind and body craves each day.
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There comes the point that the sex ends and then you’re left with the inevitable psychological crash that accompanies this. Equate it to a runner’s high. You finish the race and now there’s nowhere to go. I didn’t know much about “N” so understanding her needs after sex was a variable I hadn’t contemplated until the moment of truth. Does she want to be held, does she want to be left alone, will it be an escape with a possible text the next day saying, “thank you”? There were moments of anxiety, not really knowing what to do next but secretly hoping she would agree to stay the night. From our standpoint, that’s a near emotional and psychological equivalent to the actual act of sex. It implies a level of commitment and trust that may not be apparent during the moments of hedonistic pleasure. Laying next to someone says something that even sex may not imply. And waking up together then brings about another possible discomfort in the relationship process that nobody wishes to go through. The most wonderful surprise was the fact that a relationship was struck, not one full of commitments and expectations, but of pleasure and enjoyment and respect. Eating a late breakfast, it was apparent our intellect and interests more than intersected and the comfort and relief of this developed an even deeper passion and desire.
Physical looks matter. Intelligence matters. The combination of these makes desire run much hotter than if it was only one or the other. We agreed to meet again that night, wondering how we could ever top the night before but we found the intensity to be even greater because now we settled into a level of comfort and understanding that we didn’t have the night before. And the fact she wanted to be with us a second night made the evening that much more exciting and stimulating. We finally found someone able to keep up with us sexually. And the sex was hot and nasty and raunchy.
We brought her to climax several times and the strap on play was unbelievable. She was the first to ever use one on me and I came. Hard. It was toe curling excitement and I loved feeling this woman exert her dominance, even for a short time, over me. My husband took her numerous times and I loved being able to sit back and once again enjoy watching the show, as though it was a true out of body experience. He put her face down on the bed, pulled her ass up in the air and fucked her, all the while, her facial features telegraphed the pleasure and excitement she was feeling. From a voyeurs standpoint, it was unlike watching porn. This is pure, unadulterated hedonistic sex, the kind porn stars wish they had. There were no outtakes or miscues. Her mouth would form in a small circle, her eyes rolling back into her head and each thrust of my husband’s cock into her made me feel like the most powerful woman on earth. I orchestrated this and now I enjoyed the fruits of my labor. I wanted a third. I wanted a smart, talented, intelligent woman to challenge me, to give me some competition and to make me better at who I was. And I wanted her to be a dirty girl just like me. I showed her new positions and taught her a few things about her body and her orgasmic expectations that she never knew. But even during the moments of kink, there was a desire to please her. We wanted her to experience all the wonderful things that we experience on a daily and weekly basis with one another. It wasn’t selfish exploitation that drove this relationship but a true sense that if she experienced orgasms and pleasure like she’d never felt before, she’d find new things inside herself that could guide her into and through future relationships. We wanted to show her that striving for her pleasure was not a bad thing. But down deep inside, I did want to see her used. I wanted to see my husbands cock plunge into her over and over, hear her squeal with pleasure and watch his explosion happen inside of her, taking what he wanted and, for a short time, not worrying about her pleasure but about his own. I love being the vessel that gets him off. I feel a true sense of accomplishment when I make him reach climax, even when I don’t. I want him served first and I wanted her, for a time, to serve him first. And she did, magnificently.
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Our second night of carnal pleasure went for hours. A large round loveseat in the hotel room had a spectacular view of Manhattan and that’s where we brought “N” to the climax she needed. That soul draining, physically exhausting climax that caused her to fall into my husband’s arms in complete bliss and satisfaction. I don’t know if I could possibly recall the number of orgasms we had. What “N” learned was that riding a cock backwards allowed for greater penetration and simultaneous self stimulation, producing orgasms that last, explode, permeate and penetrate right down to the soles of your feet. What aroused me most is knowing that the deeper he penetrated her the more she begged for it and the more intense the sex became. I felt like the consummate bad girl, creating an atmosphere and scenario that by even today’s standards and acceptance is still slightly taboo.
We ended our first weekend together by laying in bed and talking about what transpired the past two evenings. This was the level of sophistication and sensuality that we couldn’t even imagine. As we drifted off to sleep I remember craving the feel of my husbands cock inside me, if just for a short period of time, to bring me to the point of exhaustion so I could sleep. During the night I felt the arousal of my husband and I knew I would be in for an early morning. Sex can be so wonderfully tiring at times.
Around 6:15 the light from the sun began permeating the room and I could feel my husband’s arousal and his partially awake body moving against mine. It frequently starts like this and I crave that in the morning, especially if he’s going to be traveling. I love the smell of sex, the feel of his cum inside me and the knowledge I’ve been used purely for pleasure. His pleasure. I felt his leg push my legs apart and saw “N” looking at us as he pushed the head of his cock into me ever so slightly and caused my wetness to escalate. I heard her whisper, “that is so hot”. He only penetrated me ever so slightly to the point I began begging him to fully enter me. In one swift, strong, penetrating thrust he entered me fully and an intense craving to be used swept over me. I want to be the dirty whore for him. I want other women to know and value this feeling. It’s my purpose.
This is the way sex is supposed to be. Dirty. Carnal. Nasty. Raunchy. I don’t ever want to go back to the good girl. I enjoyed fucking her, I loved fingering her, I wanted her to use that strap on again and I wanted my husband to use us both until he was fully satisfied. Which is never. I could never get enough of watching his erection moving in and out of her.
The afternoon prior, “N” went home to do some work and my husband and I lay on the lawn in the shade during a sweltering but breezy Saturday afternoon. We relived each individual moment. We basked in delight about how easy and comfortable this was the night before. We discussed the other women we approached in the past who were neither mature or sophisticated enough to handle this type of relationship. We revealed our cautious optimism but agreed that if that one night were the only night with “N”, it was more than worth it. As the sun started to lower behind the buildings and the temperature cooled, we sat at a table outside the hotel where some families gathered and heard the annoying laughter and profanity of several slightly drunk ladies who migrated from the streets above the hotel to drink cheap alcohol. I gently reminded them of the children around and one lady came over, cutely drunk, and began talking. Alcohol merely exposes the true feelings of the soul and she bared hers to us. My husband was visibly annoyed at the intrusion but I was curious to hear her inebriated thoughts. She had an 11 month old child at home and she immediately noticed the obvious happiness generated by our first night with “N”. Slightly slurring her words she unleashed her frustration of her own marriage and that child birth meant the death of pleasure and the summary execution of passion that she once had when she was courting. My husband’s demeanor changed slightly as we both saw a woman who wanted to be that dirty girl for her husband. “I just want him to throw me up against the wall and fuck me like a whore”, she said. A familiar and not uncommon feeling amongst many women. Dominant, submissive, switch. All of us want, at some point, to just be that dirty whore.
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Our Second Meeting
At the conclusion of our first weekend with “N”, we walked her to the train and our melancholy was palpable, but not in the way two lovers feel at the conclusion of a love affair but when you wish you could extend a holiday or recalling old memories and wishing you could relive them. I wished she could stay an extra few hours or that we didn’t live four hours away. I wanted to be able to hop on a train and see her mid week, even if it was for dinner or casual chat. She is that enjoyable and seductive. As I watched her depart and began that slow trek back to the hotel to pack up and leave, I began planning in my mind the second meeting with her. I wanted it badly.
Several weeks later, we managed to find a less than reasonable reason to travel back to Manhattan. We weren’t looking for a good reason. Just any reason and the excitement in her texts between us was quite palpable. We were confident she wanted to see us and thought several passionate nights between us was more than we could resist.
I don’t recall what she wore to meet us, it simply doesn’t matter. She’s stylish. Period. After a brief time at the bar we migrated to a restaurant a few blocks away, a stylishly appointed dining room that was a mixture of mid century modern and art deco. The meal was fabulous, the company stimulating and the anticipation very much at the forefront of everyone’s mind. We had to eat but we’d much rather be fucking, simply put. As “N” said early in our conversations, “how a person eats is a great indicator of how they have sex”. Our taste in food is a reflection of our taste in sex. Diverse, adventurous and curious. We tried things at dinner that were outside our comfort zone but quite enjoyable. Maybe subconsciously, this is what we wanted once we got back to our hotel. It wasn’t subconscious. It’s our reality. Once back to our room, the sex started almost immediately, but this time, without the slightly awkward pause of not knowing how to start. This time it was obvious. She pressed up against the back of my husband, started to unbutton his shirt and made it apparent she wanted to be fucked. That night was a blur. But I distinctly remember that I used a strap on on her and then gave her the privilege and joy of using one on me. It was literally toe curling sex with her and giving someone that power and letting them use it for your pleasure is truly intoxicating. She rode me like she wanted to be on top. She did want to be on top and I wanted to surrender control for just a brief moment in our brief relationship. She quickly mastered the intricacies of an appendage that had no feeling but succumbed to the power of having an erection between her legs. A truly juxtaposed experience for both of us. Me, the professional dominatrix. Her, the experienced woman with no experience with a instrument of authority and power between her legs. She brought me to intense climax within minutes of entering me. Even momentary surrender, for a dominant person, can bring intense pleasure.
We blurred the lines that first evening of our second meeting. Sometimes on top, sometimes on bottom, demanding, submitting, controlling, craving, indulging in selfing pleasure, doing everything to please the others. From early in the evening until well after midnight, the sex was constant, like a flash flood through a west Texas town. It carved out deep crevices through our relationships and truly changed everything I ever thought about the addition of another deeply sexual person to an already committed relationship.
As we fell asleep after the hours of pleasure, there was light banter and chat about the evening with a lingering diminuendo that eventually led to the slow rhythmic breathing of the two people to my left falling into sleep and eventually I joined them. There was sex in the middle of the night and I loved hearing them as I drifted in and out of consciousness knowing that the next evening would be equally if not more intense than the previous.
“N” is a habitual early riser and the next morning, after about an hour of sex, we caught a taxi to Greenwich Village for breakfast. I don’t recall the meal and vaguely remember the restaurant but I do remember the slow walk through the village, sitting at an outside table and enjoying some meal but the company even more. This is our foreplay with “N”. It’s about delving into whatever part of her life she chooses to expose us to. It’s about conversing and learning what she loves and craves and likewise, telling her about us. As we slowly wandered the streets our connection grew and I knew I wanted to see so much more of her and looked forward, immensely, to that evening. As we parted ways for the afternoon so she could get a bit of work done and ponder the evening prior, we made our way back to the hotel, lay on the bed and talked about our plans for the evening. A brief nap to recharge, dirty pillow talk about “N” and a blow job and I was ready to go again. When “N” arrived, we discussed potential dinner spots and settled on one several blocks away. In the end, it turned out to be one that we still talk about. Not because of the food but because of the subtle stir we created by our mere presence. Two women together and men may fantasize but realistically know that they’re probably just friends. A man and a woman and people think it’s just a boring Saturday night date. But two beautiful women and a man, that fires the imagination. The table behind us selectively eavesdropped on our conversation which ranged from our lives in general to the specificity of the sex the night before. Creating that picture for frustrated men’s imaginations heightened my arousal. I want those men to think about what it would be like to be with me and “N”, knowing it will never happen. As we walked up the street, I caught the glance of a frustrated, trapped man, burdened by the children in a stroller and the wife trying to satisfy the children and gain some semblance of order at their table. The longing stare of that poor man will forever be burned in my mind. His gaze said it all. He wanted out and badly.
To be continued…